I am sorry it has been so long since our last blog update. I am a wife, mom, teacher, amazing, beautiful, gifted, humble—oh sorry I got carried away there; I have been busy and have had nothing in particular to report on the adoption front. Now several people have asked me what our status is so I thought it was time I tell you all at the same time.
We have been in the adoption process (or paper pregnant as they say) for 2 years and 24 days. Our desire to adopt began long before that but the actual initial application was done Jan 1, 2010. Yes 2010. Our social worker told us we may have the record for longest adoption she has worked on. I was a little honored to get recognition for something. My heart does bleed for orphans. My true gut desire is for children without moms and dads to come live with us, ahem I mean, to be adopted by someone and be adored. I can not look at pictures or hear stories of orphans without crying and trying to figure out how to arrange my life to invite them into it. I have an open, gushing, painful, bleeding wound. Two years and 24 days is a long time to be processing paper work, raising support, and all the other necessaries and still not have our children home. I have not enjoyed the process as much as some. I have read some beautiful testimonies of families that who enjoyed the entire process. I am not there yet but I am learning. It made me think about the nurse wo came in my room after I had just given birth to Zaria. I was totally perplexed. I told her “I don”t know why any woman would do that more than once”. She looked at me and said “I loved my labors”. WOMAN IS YOU CRAZY!?! (OK I didn’t say that but that is what I was thinking.) Labor was more pain than I could have imagined. I know the Lord brought that woman into my life for that brief moment so that I could hear those words. I went on to go through labor 3 more times after that and while EVERY one of them were equally as painful as the first, I chose to love my labors. I can choose to love this process even though it hurts.
Remember the woman, whose life was written about in the Bible, she had a bleeding problem. She was bleeding non stop for 12 years. (If you are not familiar with her story than you can find it Matt 9:20, Mark 5:25, and Luke 8:43.) Her suffering was much worse than mine and obviously it was for much longer but do you remember what made her well? It was her faith in Jesus. She knew if she just got close enough to him to touch his garment than she would get well. Our wonderful Jesus saw her and said “Your faith has made you well”. I love Jesus. I know He sees my bleeding, He sees my faith in Him to make them well. He will stop the bleeding. The woman’s faith was in Him and I choose the same. His desire if for orphans to be cared for and I have faith that He will use us as a vessel for His desire. I know I have to walk in the steps He ordained. I choose to enjoy it after all I get to see Him work.
About a month ago (maybe more) I was having a particularly painful day. I had received and email about a little boy who I really wanted to help but couldn’t. He was in an orphanage in eastern Europe, he was 15 and he was about to “age out”. Not many positive stories of children after they age out. If you have any questions about that send me an email and I will explain. I was carrying his picture around on my phone that day and praying and questioning God and wondering how God would want me to help in this situation. I was bleeding. And The Lord provided a miracle. A good friend, on that day, gave us a large financial gift for adoption. I just put my head down and cried and said “thank you, thank you thank you Lord. You are so amazing to encourage me today. You are here with me and you drive me. You know my needs and you provide. Thank you Lord.” I couldn’t even talk to the person giving the gift I just had to talk to God. That 15-year-old boy did end up getting adopted. Rescued.
That night Walt and I went out on our bi-weekly date and we prayed and discussed what direction to go. We decided that we were already prepared for Ethiopia. We still do and will care about the children aging out in Eastern Europe and all over the world but for now we will walk in the steps ordained for us and right now those are Africa bound. Who knows what He will be bringing for steps in the future.
With that financial gift we were able to go ahead and send our dossier to Ethiopia and that is where it is now. This morning I received an email from our agency. This is part of it “This update is to let you know that your dossier has been authenticated, translated, and registered with the Ministry of Women’s, Children’s and Youth Affairs (MOWYCA) in Addis Ababa. Congratulations!
The next stage of the process may be the most difficult one yet – which is the wait for your referral. It’s important for you to know that I and the entire Ethiopia team want to support and care for you as best we can during this time – which can feel like eternity!”
Praise the Lord our paper stuff is done and in Ethiopia, translated, authenticated and ready for waiting. hmmm I think we will be alright in the waiting. We are so excited to know that anytime in the next several months we could get a call saying our children are waiting to meet us.
So we will enjoy today, bleeding and all, knowing he allowed the bleeding (He ordained the bleeding), so we could see His faithfulness, exercise ours, and all could see His miracle when our children come home.